When I started blogging, it really started out as a challenge to myself: get a hobby and learn something new
As the months of planning and building Ginger Side of Life progressed, I began to see this “hobby” materialize and it was thrilling. All I wanted to do was shout it from the rooftops, “I, Chelsea John, followed through with what I said I would do!” I was excited, proud and driven. Then, suddenly, extremely self conscientious.
The self doubt crept in and was wrestling with my hard earned pride. I had worked with Ryan and several friends, spending hours building this blog. It was a feat to learn a completely new coding language. Considering how difficult it was for me to learn basic German and Spanish (I have since forgotten 99% of it), it was a true “W” in the win/loss column. I was just so proud but it felt overshadowed by self doubt. I kept thinking, “I spend hours working on this blog that will, what, eventually house hundreds of photos of…me?” I oscillated between being so proud of this product, to feeling silly. Like really, explaining to one of the dads I used to babysit for that my new hobby was a fashion blog, that consisted of photos of me, felt lame. He was so genuinely interested, and I felt embarrassed. It all felt trivial. So I guess my point of writing this is, why do I fashion blog? What makes me different than my peer fashion bloggers?” and honestly, this question usually stumps me most; however, I hope that as I continue to blog, I will be able to pinpoint my exact answer to that question. But for now, my answer to, “why I fashion blog” boils down to three things:
1. I love clothes
2. I love to learn
3. I love to write
I really truly love clothes. Plain and simple. I have an appreciation for clothes that parallels the treatment of rare books at Doe Library at UC Berkeley. I love looking at old photos of my mom, grandma and Mimi, and learning the stories about those evenings when they wore this outfit or that outfit. I loved going through the upstairs closets at my Mimi’s house and watching my Aunt Mali put on her Rose Parade gown and eagerly waiting for my turn to try it on. It all sounds cheesy but I really love clothes. The one caveat is, I hate to sew. I took sewing in high school and made a pretty basic purse. It was ugly. My mom was nice enough to walk around with it for about a week. She loves me. My second caveat to loving clothes comes to paying full price. Really, I just can’t. In a later post, I will have to make a few major confessions on where I get the majority of my clothes (eBay, borrowed, Crossroads/Buffalo Exchange). Overall, I love clothes and this is one reason why I blog.
I love to learn. Like I said above, I really wanted to get a hobby and usually that entails learning something. I cannot tell you how many times my dad has sent me excel tutorials on “how to become a master at excel” or “the ins and outs of photoshop,” and all those tutorials did was sit on my bookshelf. My dad would follow up, “Chelsea, did you look at that excel thing I sent you?” and sadly, I would bold face lie, “yes dad, I looked at it,” and “yes, dad, it was SO helpful.” After too many years of lying, I wanted to find a reason to learn something that would have practical, real life, outcomes. Starting Ginger Side of Life has done that for me. I will never claim to have done this on my own, because, wow, would that be a gigantic lie, and I think I am done with that lifestyle, but I will proudly admit, it has forced me into a zone that I am extremely uncomfortable and thus, I am learning.
Finally, I love to write. However, keeping a journal is too much of a commitment. My mom once told me, “Chelsea, I am not good with long term commitments after a long work day, which is why I am quitting this step class after one class.” I remember being so annoyed that she quit but now, as the years have past, I definitely inherited that trait from her. I have this extreme phobia of being committed to something after work on a consistent basis. Even a friend who wants to go on a weekly run home from work with me or go to the gym, extremely freaks me out. I am independent, and get overwhelmed when I am over committed because I feel like I cannot do whatever I want. My point for sharing this is, writing a blog is a commitment, but a commitment to something I love and would never do otherwise. Writing takes practice and without Ginger Side of Life, I simply would not do it. As Ashley S put it on the Bachelor a few weeks ago, “I am like an onion with many layers,” and I usually understand how I truly feel about things when I write. So I blog, because I get to learn about me.
Overall, probably no one will read this entire post, and that is okay. I put some thoughts to digital screen and now feel my mind can rest and sleep.
clicking schedule on this post was extremely scary
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Links à la Mode: February 5th
- Anti-Muse Fashion Riot: Thomas Hanisch: Berlin Fashion Week Debut
- Attire Club: Thoughts on Beauty and Race
- Cat Eyes & Skinny Jeans: Essie Wrapped Color in Cashmere Trio
- Ginger Side of Life: Why I Fashion Blog
- Late Night Minutes: Review, Swatch + Dupes: Rouge Louboutin
- Life in the Fash Lane: Blogger Commenting Etiquette
- Modavracha’s Spot: Beauty Review: Benton Snail Bee High Content Essence
- Ms. Fabulous: Katy Perry’s Super Bowl Style
- My Legendary Style: 8 Beauty Tips You Need to Know
- Omnivouge: NYFW Packing Essentials
- Sammy Says: Are Designer Handbags Worth The Hype?
- Storybook Apothecary: Seductive Fragrances for Valentines Day
- Style Curated: Van Gogh: Viktor + Rolf Haute Couture 2015
- That Paki Blog: London vs Milan vs Paris Menswear
- The Fab Diaries: 5 Tips for Taking Care of Your Cat!
- The Fashion Barbie: What is Fashion Doing Wrong?
- The Rivaux: Over Hyped Products: Why My Lips Are Always Chapped
- TLV Birdie: California Style: How to Dress Up in 60 Seconds
- We Are Ready Made: Gender Duality
- Wild Beauty: The Last Tattooed Women of Kobane